Today I am officially halfway through the 2WW! During this cycle (and all my previous cycles), I have been overwhelmed by the love and support I have received from my friends, family members, and fellow bloggers. Even little things like checking on me to see how I feel or if there is anything they can do to help means so much to me. I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful support system.
One of the more difficult things I have had to learn while dealing with infertility is that sometimes I need to be selfish when choosing who to maintain relationships with and who to let go. Just because someone is a good person and I like them does not mean I need to keep them in my life. When I first created my blog, I wrote a post about my struggles with Facebook. I decided to keep my connections with my actual friends and family members only.
It does not mean I dislike the people I am no longer connected with on Facebook. It means that just because I have met someone in the past, I do not have to keep up with their life. It also does not mean that I end our connection once someone is expecting. Pregnancy announcements are always hard for me. I would rather reserve them for people I care about so my love for them can help me overcome my jealously.
I am still very happy that I chose to change things up on my Facebook page. It is now a wonderful tool I can use to keep up with people I care about (minus the clutter!). I also really enjoy keeping up with my blog and my fellow bloggers. When I started it, I did not expect to relate with people I have never met as much as I do. Sometimes I read posts from other bloggers and I feel like I could have written the same exact thing. While I would never wish infertility on no one, it is nice to know that my experiences and reactions to it are not an anomaly.
I believe that infertility is extremely difficult to truly understand until someone actually goes through it. I am so thankful I have a place to share my struggles, successes, and sometimes just vent. I have also learned many great tips and tricks for getting through this from other bloggers. I hope that I have been able to provide some support and encouragement for someone else at least once.
Also, for some reason, I do not feel the pang of jealously when other bloggers announce a pregnancy (well maybe for a short period of time but it really does dissipate). I think it may because I identify with their struggle. I know how infertility can overrun someone’s life and I filled with joy when one more person no longer has to deal with it. The other reason I am happy is selfish. If something worked for someone else, then it could maybe work for me. It gives me hope. I do not know if this cycle worked but either way, I am confident I have the support and resources needed to manage the outcome.
I usually have more pictures so I figured I would post one of my dogs for fun.
Have a great day everyone! – Jennie