IUI #3 failed. I have cried about it, been mad about it, accepted it, and moved on. I am now 100% ready for IVF. Even though I have been struggling with infertility for four years, I have only recently been able to honestly say this. We have learned a lot with everything we have done up to this point (except of course the cause of our infertility) and I can now say I am ready for the next step.
One thing that has really helped is this blog. I know I can never prepare for everything that can come with IVF but I know a hell of a lot more than I did even just six months ago. A lot of this comes from reading the experiences of other people who have gone through IVF. I am so grateful that other bloggers are willing to share these experiences. Doctors are great but I feel like I learn just as much (if not more) from people actually know what it is like.
Even though I am ready now, I am still scared. My husband and I have discussed what we may do if IVF fails (and also if it works). It is a little scary to think about going through the process, not having it work, and having to deal with the very real fact that I am never carry a child or be a parent.
We have decided to start the IVF process in August with a retrieval in September. There is no perfect time to do it but we have decided that this time works best. I am teaching a five week morning microeconomics class starting in July. After that, I do not teach again until the spring semester. During the fall, I will have no classes and will dedicate most of my time to my dissertation. This of course is a lot of work but time wise, it is very flexible. I can also scale back the amount of work I do as needed.
I added a link to one of my favorite songs that I feel relates to this post. It is Colorblind by the Counting Crows. Besides the fact that it is one of my favorite songs of all time, I feel that it does relate to this post and how I feel about undergoing IVF.
I hope everyone has a wonderful week! – xoxox Jennie