We are starting the IVF process and I am in the third week of taking birth control pills. If you read my last post, you know that we completed all our preliminary blood work. Everything came back great minus my genetic testing which was mishandled by LabCorp. I called today and they said that the results will not be available for another week even though I redid them a week and a half ago and they said they would expedite it since they screwed up the first time. My doctor will not order any other medication besides birth control until those results are back. I am so ready to be done with the testing phase so we can move on to bigger and better things.
I am also having issues with my birth control (skip this paragraph if TMI bothers you). I have had a lot of break through bleeding, cramping, and irritability. Online resources say this sometimes happens and it is getting on my nerves. Has anyone else experienced this? I am also super emotional but I am not sure if that has anything to do with the birth control or the overall situation. Most of my friends would say I am a fairly unemotional person. I do not think that being emotional is bad, it is just not me. Part of the reason I think I am like this is because I have experienced some pretty bad losses in the past and this is just how I cope. I recently tried to watch the movie Up and did not get through the first bit without falling apart. What is wrong with me? I am not like this usually.
We have been dealing with infertility for over four years but for some reason, I feel like I can not wait another day to complete IVF. I am so ready for all of this stuff to be done. I have gotten used to the multitude of pregnancy announcements which seem to be made daily but for some reason, now they are hitting me extra hard. I am starting to think that I may turn into a basket case once we start my injections. One of the main ways I deal with stress and anxiety is through exercise. I have been having a lot of pain above my left ankle and today my doctor told me I have Peroneal Tendinosis. Besides taking steroids, the ‘cure’ requires me to refrain for excessive activity for the next few weeks. I need to find a new way to cope with stuff and I am not sure what to do.
I know that I am super lucky to even have the opportunity to attempt IVF. I wish I could feel more gratitude and less anxiety and frustration. That would make this whole process so much easier. – Jennie