Beta #2

Published March 12, 2015 by Jennie

So we have been dealing with infertility for over five years so you would think I would be good at waiting. Apparently that is not the case! I had my second beta draw yesterday morning. Unlike my first beta, this one was not marked ‘stat’. I later found out  my insurance will only pay for one stat draw per cycle (go figure!). I went crazy waiting for the results which did not arrive yesterday. Today I waited again all morning. I had a meeting today at 2PM so of course they call when I could not answer the phone.  All I could do was stare at the missed call and wonder what they had to say.

The news is great. My beta more than doubled. I know I still have a ways to go but I am relieved!

I recently had a long talk with Caroline about how I feel being pregnant. I kept mentioning things that can go wrong and why I worry about everything. She encouraged me to read one of her recent posts about what she plans to do next time she gets pregnant (which WILL happen soon!). One part really spoke to me which went as follows:

Enjoy each and every day! I spent so much time worrying last time about Jackson that I did not enjoy him while I had him.  I remember the day that I ate an entire thing of Thin Mints (no judgment!) and he crazy he went moving all around in my belly.  It is one of the best memories I have of him. I wish I had slowed down more and enjoyed the little things.  I was too worried about what would happen once he was born or that I was not gaining weight (from being sick) or what his nursery would look like.  When all I should have been doing was enjoying him.

This really changed my perspective. Nothing is guaranteed. I want to enjoy the time I have with my son whether it be one more day or the rest of my life. There will always be a place for worrying but it took us over 5 years to get to this point and I am going to enjoy every moment. I can’t wait to see what the future brings! – Jennie

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33 comments on “Beta #2

      • I had to do, I think it ended up being like 5 betas, and then each time I was in the ER (2 times) I had one. You feel like a human pin cushion supplying a lifetime of food for a vampire after awhile, and every time you sit on edge waiting for the results just to make sure they’re doubling like they’re supposed to. I definitely feel for you cause I’ve been there. I’d like to tell you it gets easier lol but wait until you’re waiting for the scan to hear the heartbeat. It’s so incredibly worth it though. The little woosh woosh sound, I never thought I could be so happy and in awe!

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  • With our first we never made it far… so when we got pregnant again, I made sure that I enjoyed every day. Everyday was a gift and everyday I got to feel happy. If it was to be taken from me then I would have at least felt what it was like to be that happy. I held my breath for 27 weeks and slowly exhaled for last 13. I am hoping the same for you. Enjoy this day, and enjoy everyday you get! ❤ All the best to you! ❤

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  • Yay, that is great news! And the other blogger is absolutely right. I spent so much of my early pregnancy being scared and nervous. It was almost like everyone got to be more excited than me which is so silly. So do the best you can to enjoy every moment with your little boy. I am so happy for you. 🙂

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  • Are you getting any pregnancy symptoms yet? I still have none. I never thought I’d ask for a little nausea, something, anything so I know all is going well! haha

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    • I am right there with you. I have had zero symptoms. I am still on progesterone and estrogen patches so you would think I would get something from those if nothing else. I know what you mean. I do not want to feel sick but it would be so nice to get a little sign that things are moving along like they should.

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